Mourning a friend.
Today it is time to share sadness, and in doing so, perhaps support one another. Yesterday morning I learned that my friend Jami Beck passed away unexpectedly on Thursday. Amazing, full of life, exuberant, delightful, Jami. I did not immediately share a personal Facebook post because I wanted to make sure that it was ok to share on Social Media. As I communicated with some friends about this devastating loss, I shared with and for them a few prayers and thoughts which come from my "Pastor Sylvia Mann" calling. This past year, I have had the honor and heart wrenching occasion to comfort a number of families in the loss of their loved ones, and officiate for their services. I am sharing some of those here today.
Here is one of the prayers:
Eternal
God, who sends consolation to all sorrowing hearts, we turn to You for
solace in this, our trying hour.
Though bowed in grief as our loved one departs from our midst to enter
into peace of life eternal, we reaffirm our faith in Your compassion and
Your ever-present love.
May we bear our sorrow with trustful hearts, and knowing You are near,
may we not despair. Into Your hands we commend the spirit of our
beloved. Body and soul are Yours, O God, and in Your presence we cast
off fear and are at peace.
"There is no death, what we call death.
Is but surcease from strife;
They do not die who we call dead,
They go from life ... to Life."
Amen
Whenever I guide people through a memorial service, there is a segment called a "Homily". It is a brief message for those gathered together. And so, here is a
"HOMILY FOR JAMI"
We are gathered together in the
protective shelter of God’s healing love. We are free to grieve, to celebrate,
to laugh and to cry. We can face our emptiness, and feel the fullness of the
love of God. We gather to honor and to commend to God with thanksgiving the
life of Jami as we celebrate the good news of Christ’s resurrection. For
whether we live or die, we belong to Christ.
We are here to hold each other in
comfort, compassion, condolence, and even in joy. Joy at having known her, and
joy in being a part of each other’s lives.
Jami Nichole Beck, daughter of Kim
and Janine (DeMers) Beck was born August 11, 1981, in Sioux Falls, South Dakota
was a gift of love. Left to cherish her memory are her parents, Kim and Janine
Beck of Sioux Falls; horses Tigger and Franny; and a host of additional family
and friends. She was preceded in death
by her grandparents, Orville and Kaye Beck and Lawrence and Louise DeMers; and
cousins, Justin DeMers and Kari DeMers.
As many of you know, I was privileged
to be able to sometimes enjoy making music with Jami. She was a blessing to all
of us.
I missed her when she traveled back
to South Dakota, and, Sometimes when I thought that maybe we had lost touch, we
were brought together again. Jami
enriched our community, and brightened all of our lives with her smile.
Jami’s life MATTERED, and it still
matters. She touched so many, many people; and simply be being here she brought
more love into the world. One life - so many ripples …we are all connected.
Let us pray together:
Holy God, whose ways and whose thoughts are not our thoughts,
grant that your Holy Spirit may intercede for us with sighs too deep for words.
Heal our wounded hearts. Through the veil of our tears and the silence of our
emptiness, assure us again that ear has not heard, nor eye seen, nor human
imagination envisioned what you have prepared for those who love you; Remind us
that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things
present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything
else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Jesus
Christ, we pray. Amen
Now – take a breath -
We are here for many different reasons - because we’ve lost
someone special and want to celebrate and honor his memory… So we all have something in common. We all
love deeply, and hurt deeply because Jami is no longer here with us in the way
to which we’d grown accustomed.
There is a reading I would
like to share with you. A reading about that time when we move away from this
plane, this existence. It’s from Job 19: 25-27
o I know that my Redeemer lives, and at last will stand
upon the earth; and after my body has wasted away, then without my flesh I
shall see God, whom I shall see for myself, and my eyes shall behold, and not
as a stranger.
We’re also all here because we believe that life is more than
this flimsy skin and bones. More than our imperfect earthly bodies. We’re all
here because we believe that love extends beyond this physical being. We want
to reconstruct, to re-member those who are no longer with us in their bodies.
As we are present with each other, we can find the inner
strength that comes when we share something deep and meaningful and tender with
others who are going through similar pain. One of the things we learn through
this time, is the truth of the interconnectedness, the inter-relationship of
all life.
In case you didn’t already know it, the emotions that come
when somebody you love dies are not always recognizable as grief. Sometimes you
feel disbelief. You may find yourself still looking for your loved one …and
sometimes even “see” them in a crowd, or hear that wonderful voice. Sometimes
you feel irritated or depressed or guilty. Sometimes, you feel numb, or even
like you might be going crazy. Sometimes you may even feel hatred, betrayal, or
a sense of abandonment.
Grief is like a tidal wave that picks you up and tosses you
around and bumps you into unidentifiable surfaces, and then casts you out onto
an unfamiliar beach, devastated. And just when you think you might be
recovering, the wave sweeps over you again.
Sometimes
you think that no one in the whole world, the whole, entire world, could ever
have felt this kind of agony. And yet we’re all here, we’re all together,
because we have all loved and lost and we are all suffering from it. We are
connected in life and breath, to the entire universe.
And that - that means we’re not alone.
So whatever you’re feeling right now, just notice it and
allow it to be.
You’ve been through a lot. Love is all around us, in the
disguise of all these feelings. All of these feelings you’re having since your
loved one died are because you LOVE so deeply.
Today, let us recognize that we don’t hurt alone. We can
allow ourselves time to share memories and tears with others who also know love
and how it hurts. And we can cling to the assurance that as we re-member our Cillian
by stating again how he lived and changed our lives JUST BY BEING, death will
not have the final word.
As I close these
remarks, let us pray once again…
We thank you, God, Great Creator, for your loving trust in
us. In creation, you first clothed us in dignity; called us not things, but you
beloved children, and said that we were very good. And you love us and promise
never, never, never to leave us or disown us.
Today, in all of our frailty, sadness, and groping in this
seeming darkness; in doubt, in love, in feeble hope, we stand in your
presence—not lifted from what is human, but as we truly are: the work of your
loving hands. We stand God-touched and frail, yet possessing the dignity that
your acceptance of us and presence with us gives to us.
Give courage and faith to us in our sadness, that we may have
strength to meet the days ahead in the comfort of a reasonable and holy and
joyful hope of eternal reunion with those we love.
Help us, we pray, in the midst of the sting of brokenness and
death, to believe and trust in your loving presence and forgiveness, in the
goodness of true fellowship of others who believe, and in new life that springs
from death.
We pray these things in adoration, gratitude, and awe. Amen.
Here is a link to Jami's online obituary:
https://www.georgeboom.com/obituary/jami-beck?lud=19E42431BE94232B343EDEDFB77CD55D
My prayers are with all of you. May Jami's memory be a blessing.
Pastor Sylvia Lee Mann